Acetaminophen

My birthday is coming up. For most people it seems like their whole young lives are leading up to the day they turn 21. But for me, I think it's turning 20 that is the clincher. I pretty much don't really do anything that required me to be 21, so i'm not expecting it to be that big a deal to me, but turning 20 is a whole different story. 20 means i'm not a child anymore. 20 means that I can no longer relate to 17 year olds. 20 opens up a whole nother door to life, the getting married and having children door and the eventually being totally self sufficient door. 20 opens the "I'm now too old for that" door, when just the day before it would have been acceptable. Now a days, 20 is the real transition from child to young adult, no matter what the law says about 17 or 18 year olds being 'legal'.

I want to do something fun this birthday, I feel like it's one of the most important birthdays I will have in my life. One of the most important milestones.

I feel like time is so intangible. I want to reach out and shake it and tell it to stop sometimes.

So, I am exceedingly bad at planning parties. Always have been. But this year I need to come up with something cool to do. All I want is to have all my good friends around me and be somewhere where no one will be uncomfortable and everyone will be happy. One thing however that seems to get in the way of that a lot of times is the fact that not all of my good friends get along with each other. In fact, some straight up hate each other. Not many, but a few. And the last thing I would want on my birthday is a bitch fight taking the attention off of me. Just kidding about the attention thing, but yes.. you get the idea. So if I am really serious about this get together thing... (eughhh just saying the words 'get together' already stress me out) I am going to have to start inviting people.. yesterday.

I am beginning to figure out where I stand as of now in life. It has taken me a while of being insecure about things to realize that things really are going in the right direction. I have positive people around me and friends that I know are my true friends and genuinely care for me, I am privileged enough to be able to go to an awesome school with amazing people that always offer me everything I need, not to mention i've got an absolutely amazing boyfriend that has to be in the top ten of best boyfriends ever. So I think I need to stp complaining as much about life and realize that i've got way too many good things going on to be complaining.

I seriously don't think people actually think about the fact that there are hundreds of thousands of people in the world who would most likely kill someone to live like you do. But we go around complaining because of some he-said-she-said bull crap that we act like is the most important thing going on in our lives. And in most cases, that's true. That's all that most of us do have to worry about.. ever think about that?

Maybe you talk about people because you're bored. Maybe you do it because you are a malicious person. But that's impossible, right? Of course you aren't...

Sara and I both agree that asian babies are the cutest babies ever. We are going to adopt them and name them after organic biochemestry compounds. How does Aldehyde Carboxcilica sound?

This is my (major gifts) birthday list this year:

1. A new PC from New Egg (ask Michael for specs details) that looks like this


2. A (NON electronic) drum set that looks something like this:


3. A new phone preferably a sidekick or one that at least does the slide-y thingy so that I can type on it like a key board and has a GPS mapping system and looks something like this:

4. Piano sheet music for the little Mermaid! It might look like this:


5. A World of Warcraft subscription card for any amount of time would be muuuchh appreciated. See below:


So I will be a pretty happy camper if I get any one of these this year :)

thanks a lot.